Halloween blahs:(

I know every women has body image issues me included. I struggle most of the time to except the way my body looks but for some reason my body issues really flares up around Halloween. I’m not a small girl and I know I need to lose about 20 lbs and over all I’m alright with the way I look until Halloween sneaks up and its that time of year to look for a costume.


The dreaded costume…ugh! The hours spend at multiple costume shop only to walk out empty handed and even more discourage than when I first walked in.

You know how every group has the one “fat” girl in the group? The girl that everyone keeps just to keep everyone feeling better about themselves, well I’m the fat girl. I’m the largest one in the group…I’m the heifer of the group at size 14. I can jiggle, wiggle and roll with the best of them. It's a hard title to accept but someone has to be that girl.

There are so many outfits that are so cute and yes ,so slutty and I wish I had that rockin body that could pull off that look but I don’t. I get to look at the plus sized outfits which are never as cute and fun as the “regular” sized girls. They all kinda remind me of a potato sacks.

However I did find two costumes that may work out for me.

I figure I could pull off these costumes if I go get some spanx to smooth out and hide all the bumps and rolls I have. It will tighten up my tummy and I think I could rock these costumes. The good news is they have an XLarge and according to the charts I will be able to fit into them with a little wiggle room because I still want to be able to breath a little bit in the outfit.
 
Now the questions is which one should I get?
 

Oh Yeah…I flew a T-6!!

How often does someone tap you on the shoulder and ask you if you want a ride in a T-6?

For those of you who don’t know what a T-6 is here is a quick description:

The North American Aviation T-6 was a single-engine advanced trainer aircraft used to train pilots of the United States Army Air Forces, United States Navy, Royal Air Force and other air forces of the British Commonwealth during World War II and into the 1950s

This was the T-6 I flew

So let me back up a little bit., Mitch for the past 6 or 7 years builds a pedal plane to raffle off for SMA support. For the past 5 or 6 years I have assisted him by helping in the sales of the raffle tickets during a fundraiser at a local airport.

This is a picture of the pedal plan Mitch built this year

 Also during the fundraiser you can purchase rides in different planes and helicopter and all proceeds goes to SMA support.

While I was sitting at the both for the pedal plane Steve (organizer of the fundraiser) walked up and asked if I would like a ride in the T-6 and when someone is willing to give you a free ride in a T-6 you never pass it up. So I accepted with excitment!

So he walked me over to the plane, looked at a lady and said I was prepaid for this flight. The cost of the flight is about $180 or so.

So I climbed into the plane, buckled up and off we went. Laura was the pilot and during the flight she asked if I wanted to fly the plane. Seriously!!! Yes I would love to. So she did a quick instruction on how to fly and then said "you have controls".

I was in control for about 2 minutes…which doesn’t sound like a long time but when you are flying a huge plane like this it was long enough for me. She had me use the pedals to turn the plane and then I handed over the controls to her.

It was awesome! An experience that is just to hard to describe. Part of me wants to try to get my pilots licenses but part of me is worried that I won't be able to because I have vertigo. But I might just go ahead and try:)

To Cable or Not to Cable

It’s only been a month and a half since I gave up my cable. I gave up my cable because I was planning on my second house not selling and I was cutting costs everywhere I could. As you know, my house did sell so there not as much worry about finances and I could get cable if I wanted.


So now I’m asking my self if I should get cable or stay with the bunny ears.

There are things I miss about cable such as the DVR and the ability to rewind, record or pause shows. I MISS HGTV!!!! Which was my Saturday morning show. I really miss the FX channel and FX movie channel. UGH…I’m really missing cable

But I’m also finding there are many pros to not having cable. The first and hardest to give up is the money savings. Yes, I am a money girl. I love seeing my bank account increase in dollars and not decrease. With out cable I am saving about $86 a month and in one year I am saving $1032. Just imagine what you could do with a thousand dollars.

Not having cable also makes me get up and get out! For example this Saturday I was up at 7:30, watched the news for about 45 minutes or until they started to repeat them selves and began organizing the other half of my house. So now the Guest room is cleaned, unpacked and anything that needed stored is now in the closet (which still needs to be organized). My office and exercise room is finally put together and boxes were condensed and empty boxes moved out.

I’ve also dropped 10lbs and almost a dress size….that rocks! I think its because I’m more active. I’m not running or exercising and haven’t really changed my eating habits. I’m just up more because I don’t have 80 channels to scroll through and 30 shows to watch. I get bored with TV now and can’t just sit there any more. I think that little change has really helped.

So in the long run not having cable is a better thing for me but I’m still having withdrawals. I still want the option of having 80 channels to chose but oh well, I’m not willing to give in yet I will just have to resist the urge to call the cable company and fork over an additional $86 a month.

The Final Card is Being Played

OK, so this is becoming a very old and tiring story in my life. It's like beating a dead horse over and over again.

The EX showed up, yet again.

Yes, the ex from 6+ years ago showed up at my brothers door step last night. Yes, you heard me correctly, it was my brothers house. I'm guessing the EX figured out that I no longer live at my old house. I'm guessing he either drove by and saw the for sale sign was down or he actually stopped by and the new owner answered the door. Regardless I figure he knows that I moved.

So now that he can't find me where he normally would what does he do.....shows up at a relatives house and opens up the conversation talking about the girls. Of course he started talking about the girls...that is his last hand he has to play.

Earlier this year, after his dad showed up at my door step, I was talking to my mom and we ran through the list of all the things that he had to stay in contact with me and going through the list I realized he has exhausted all things expect for the girls. We figured the girls were going to be the last card he could play.

And it looks like he is working his last hand. Because my brother said if he hadn't started talking about the girls then he would have told him to leave. So here it is the EX's last hand, the final hand is being played.

So now what do I do?

Who knows!!! To be honest I'm kinda tired of this whole thing. Like I said at the beginning it's like beating a dead horse over and over again. It doesn't shock or surprise me anymore that he is still showing up. I'm not really angry just irritated. It's almost like an ongoing joke in my life and in a sick twisted way it's kinda funny. It's the mistake that will never end.

OK, enough about the EX. Its time for me to cook some breakfast and start painting my bedroom...make this new house feel like home!!!

Its time to Celebrate!!!!

Celebrate what, you might ask....well, let me just run down the list for the month of August alone.

1) On Aug 4, accepted and offer on my old house. This was a long process! I put the house on the market in May and didn't get anyone actually looking until the very end of July. Then I had 4 showing with in 2 weeks and the last showing ended in an offer.
2) Closing on my NEW house. On Aug 5 I signed on the dotted line and could call the new house home! Very exciting moment in my life.

3) Actually moving into my new house. On Sunday Aug 21 I rented a Uhaul and gathered family and friends who helped me move all my stuff in one day. It was exhausting but exciting, at least for me:) Now the fun part is trying to organize my house and figure out where everything should go!

5) On Aug 29th, Boyfriend surprising me with the best house warming gift ever!!! This is a handmade, all wood entrainment center...it so beautiful!

4) Closing on my old house!!!! Yes, that is right, on August 31 (last day of the month) I closed on my old house!I sat across the table on August 31 from the buyer and was about jumping out of my skin as he signed his name on the all the dotted lines. I left that room with the biggest smile on my face and a huge amount of stress off my shoulders!

I think August has been the best month this year!